Lyrics Time: Come on get higher

So, here I am once again with the lyrics, I love songs, and certian songs just resonate with me on certain days. This one did today. It was covered by a country band I like and originally done by Matt Nathanson, who I really like as well.

This is the chorus:

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

** I mean seriously, when I heard this I was like, Yeah, that is exactly how I want to feel. It just described the passion you should have for someone. That feeling of just wanting to be completely covered with there love and affection. I look forward to that feeling someday. I know it is out there, we should all feel that way about the person we are with.

Anyway, here are all the lyrics to "come on get higher". Download either the Sugarland version or if you dont like country the Matt Nathanson version, so great!
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I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
Make you believe
Make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the sound of your voice
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the pull of your heart
I could taste the sparks on your tongue
I see angels and devils
And God, when you come on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

Sing sha la la la
Sing sha la la la la

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me, drown me in love

It's all wrong, it's all wrong,
it's so right
So come on, get higher
So come on and get higher
'Cause everything works, love
Everything works in your arms

Your the cheese for my macaroni...

Okay, so while I was home recovering from surgery my friend came over who I had not seen in way to long and brought with her Juno, which is a movie, but I tend to call it the experience. From the first scene I was smitten with this girl, her sarcasm oozed all sorts of goodness and she made me belly laugh which is always a plus. Not sure if you have seen this movie, but it is fantastic. I will be buying this as I think it deserves like your favorite ice cream to be enjoyed many times.

Truly you have to watch this movie. I think it was amazing.

So, being off to recover for surgery was really good for me, it definitely forced me to slow down. Did it keep me there, not really, I came back to work yesterday then had band practice, and it seems I am off and running again. I definitely need to remember that I need to take some time to just be alone. I really enjoyed reading, watching movies, spending time with my cats, I felt more relaxed then I have in a long time this past week and a half. It was nice to have a bit of solitude.

I am looking forward to heading up to Maine on vacation on the 16th. That will be another week of just relaxing. I will hike, kayake, and just have a great time. I loved being up there last year, it was a time in my life when I needed to decompress and put some things in perspective a bit. So I am hoping it will have that same affect on me this year.

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Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and know that everything in this life has a purpose. ~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

Happiness is...

Sunny days.. great friends.. a nice breeze and walk.. ice cream...

The sound of thunder....

simple things..make me smile...

Ugh.. it does feel like the flu

So, they said it would feel like having he flu, and they were right. I feel so stuffy and heady today. Although I would have to say the pain is not as bad, I just feel like a truck ran me over. That is to be expected though so.

Today I will at least get out to lunch with a friend, think that might be it though. I really do not want to overdo it today. I want to be able to try and get out for a bit tomorrow too, however I want to make sure I get better. I dont want to overdo it and then have to back track with my recovery. I definitely have reached a breaking point most days where I was like.. yep.. I am done.

So hopefully as the days go on I start to feel better more and more. I can only imagine that will happen.

Well, off to lie down again!

:)

Post Surgery : Day 2

So I had my Septoplasty and Turbinate reduction. It went really well. I was surprised. I felt great yesterday and only had to take my pain medication when I went to sleep. I slept on the couch so I could be elevated. It was okay, I woke every few hours, and then would dose off again. Overall I rested pretty well. There is only swelling on my nose, but no bruising which is really great. I have my post op appointment tomorrow, they told me to take some pain meds before going since they clean it out and it is uncomfortable. Sounds fun huh!

Today is okay, I am a bit sore, and tired off and on, but for the most part okay. I seem to be healing really well and that makes me happy. I definitely feel it more today though, and that is expected.

Actually right now I am going to lay back and watch some useless TV.

*Enter Full Belly laugh here*

I make myself laugh so hard sometimes.. ah.. it feels so good to laugh though. :)

Orange Marmalade makes me smile

Today I had to smile to myself. I love sweet memories from the past with my nana, and today I wanted an english muffin for breakfast and decided to put Orange Marmalade on it. This always makes me think back to breakfast downstairs with Nana. She was always so particular about her breakfast. It was either a grapefruit and her tea, or toast with Orange Marmalade. I used to watch her prepare her breakfast, she would have her tea steeping til it was nice and strong and add her honey to it with just a bit of milk. Then if she was eating a grapefruit she would slice it in half on a plate, sometimes put a little bit of sugar on it, and she would so delicately use her spoon to take a piece out. If she had an english muffin she would slowly spread the butter on and then make sure every corner of it had marmalade on it. She was always so meticulous about how she did things. I still am in awe when I think back to how she would move through her day. She had such a natural grace. I have tried in my adulthood to emulate her and think in a situation what she would do.

My mother reminds me more and more of my Nana and it really amazes me. My Nana and I were beyond best friends, there was a bound there that no one will ever touch. It has been about 13 years since she past and not a day goes by when something does not remind me of her. I believe she is my guardian angel watching over me. The lessons I learned from her have continued to be a constant presence in my life.

If your Nana is alive give her a big squeeze, and think about all the memories you will cherish someday.

"Grandmas hold our tiny hands for just a little while, but our hearts forever"

Monday Mornings

Monday mornings always seem to sneak up on is. I slept great even though I am starting to get nervous about my surgery. I know it will all be fine, it has just been a while since I had any surgery around my face and it just makes me a bit uneasy.

My sister will drop me off, and then my mother will come get me, bring me to get my fantastic pain pills. Then it is off to my couch to recoup, sleep, drool (I know.. attractive huh). I guess I just hate not knowing how long til I feel better. Hopefully I can convince my friends to come and rescue me on the weekend.. even for a drive. Otherwise I might lose my mind.

This past weekend was really nice. Drinks with work friends on Friday night, dinner with old friends on Sat night, and Sunday was a baby shower for my friend Lindsay who now lives in Vegas with her hubby Paul. It was so nice to see her. Last night I just went to the grocery store since I needed to stock my fridge for after my operation. Then it was silly moves, the end of High Fidelity and then Legally Blonde. Yes, it was some heavy stuff. Then a great nights sleep.

I had a tough week last week. Those that know me well know that. Between finding out I was having surgery, some stuff with my dad, and other things, I was a bit emotional. Not always good for me since it makes me overanalyze even the great things that are going on in my life. I have some great things going on.. family, friends, new friends, and just some possible really nice beginnings. The hard part is when I am feeling this way I tend to push people in my life away, and I dont even know when I am doing it til after I open my mouth. By then it is too late. I need to learn to process my thoughts better and take time to work through them alone at first. I am getting better at that I feel though, and that shows true growth as a person.

Life is a constant learning curve, however I feel the older I get the better I am at understanding what I need and want in all areas of my life. Sometimes I just lose sight of it all.

So, this time off becuase of my surgery will be really nice for me. Give me some time to just be relaxed.

Happy Monday all, I hope this week starts off to be a good one for you all.

Happy thoughts on a beautiful day

Since yesterdays blog was a bit heavy, sorry kids, I decided to add some happy thoughts to my blog on a day that is full of sunshine and promise.

Happiness some people think is something to attain, such as, if I get that promotion I will be happy, or that job, that car, meet the right person to settle down with, buy a house.. etc. However true happiness is being able to be okay with where you are and what you do have, finding that moment that you can just be at peace with it all.

I always revert back to children when I think about this, I think about there simplicity. I mean really, did you not notice that there can be a playroom full of toys for a child, and where do you hear the banging noise coming from? The kitchen, there they are on the ground near the cabinets.. banging the pots and laughing away. It makes me laugh just thinking about the things I found fun in as a child.

For instance I will never forget this moment. My mother worked nights so she could be home with us during the day, it was one of the many sacrifices she made for us to have some sort of normalcy. Well that would mean that she would still be asleep sometimes when we came in from school. So we would watch TV and do our homework.. haha.. no really, we sometimes did our homework. Anyway, on this one particular day we decided what a GREAT idea it would be to take the ladder from the bunk beds and we would each get in a hole and be a train with my brother Will as the conductor. Fun times. So there we are, all laughing and running around the hall in my house trying not to fall over. Well our conductor was not the best driver in the world. So as we make what was to be our final turn around the hall, we veered ever so slight to the right and took out one of a set of really pretty, and (to us) pricey ceramic lamps in the living room. Oops. So like any good children we drop the ladder, scatter and HIDE as quickly as possible as we hear our mothers bedroom door open. She comes out, "William, Tara, Ruth Marie, get out here". No way Jose we were coming out. Then we hear the kitchen draw open.. oh no.. the wooden spoon (back when it was okay to smack your kids ever so slightly). Now it was always so humorous watching our mom try to find us and try to get us with it. Ah, my poor mother. But I tell you, those were some of the best times as kids, finding new ways to entertain ourselves. Of course we did try from then on to avoid the lamps.

So, if you feel you need to find that happiness inside of you, do what I do, take a moment or 5 and do something that reminds you of childhood. For me, a ride on the swings, watching planes or just putting my feet in the water can make it all go away.

Happy Friday...

and remember...

"You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life."

You will never change.. this I know

The man that was once my hero
my tiny hand in your palms
the chase that lasted for hours in the hall

The face that used to make me smile
The hugs that would always make me feel safe
the innocence of a child

Those days are memories that I will always feel
however my days now move on
I want to believe your words again, but I cant

Understand I love you, and I always will
Daddy's little girl I can not be, I have to let it go
Please let my heart be free.

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Love sometimes means letting go. Our ideals sometimes can not be what we want. Someone can say they are sorry, and eventually it becomes words that are not followed by actions. I hope that at the end of the day when I speak to God that he hears the breaking of my heart and he heals it every time.

Fathers.. love your children even when they are adults, there is always a little girl (or boy) inside that remembers.

Momentary

The breeze moves through my hair and sends a chill down my spine

I see the ocean move with it as if they are dancing

The sand feels soft and cool beneath my toes as it always does on a summer evening

There is a silence in the air, a peace that rescues me

sea foam hits my toes and tickles the tips

as the moon seems to float on a cloud and bounce light off the water

There is a song in my mind that I hum ever so softly

I hold my knees to my chest and the wonder of it all folds over me

this tranquility touches my heart and I breath in this moment

I want to bottle this and take it out when I need to see the simplicity of life

to feel this embrace of comfort and solitude

this momentary place, builds the memories of our soul

Oh my, fun times ahead with a Septoplasty for me

Oh yes folks!

I found out I need to have 2 operations. The first will be next Wednesday July 16th. I am having a Septoplasty, and turbinate reduction, which will be served with a nice Cabernet. *smile*

Read more about is all here! It is riveting really!

http://www.ghorayeb.com/SeptumSurgery.html

Then after a month of full recovery I get to have a Tympanoplasty, which is the more urgent surgery (perforation in eardrum wall), however I have to have the deviated Septum done first in order for both to be successful.

http://www.aurorahealthcare.org/yourhealth/healthgate/getcontent.asp?URLhealthgate=%2214877.html%22

It all stinks, however in the end will not only be great for me and my health in the long run, but will also have positive affects on my singing and speaking voice, which is an added bonus.

So, between the 16th and the 25th, I will be accepting LOTS of ice cream donations and if anyone wants to stop by and watch movies with me then that is allowed as well! :) Since I know I will be bored out of my mind.

hhhmmmm Fireworks

going off in places other then the sky.. making my heart pitter patter a bit.. and smile from ear to ear. Yes, it makes me really happy.

Fireworks: The lovely lights

Fireworks make my heart dance, the colors, the sounds, there is just something so magical about it. Watching the eyes of people around you as the colors flood the sky and fill it with light.

Makes me feel like a child again, and the wonder of it all, for a moment things stop and all I feel is excitement waiting to see what the next one will look like.

I find the pleasure in small moments such as this that bring me back to my center. Allowing me to stop.

Life is so busy, I love the times that slow me down and allow me to smile and enjoy. *enter I am a big dork here*

Happy 4th of July all!