When in doubt, leave it out

That is what she said folks. Sure she was referring to being in 7th grade and it had something to do with commas, however obscure, it does pertain to alot in life. I am in a strange place right now with my feelings. Not sure where to move, I guess if I played chess it would compare to when you need to make a strategic move. I don't know what I am going to do. Not sure what decision lays ahead for me with this. However I do know I am not happy with my feelings, or lack there of at the moment. I need to allow some time to go by before I will know how I am feeling. I hate the waiting stage, however it is what is necessary here. I also do not like hurting anyone if I can help it. However that is what life does, sometimes we hurt people we care about the most. I think this time I am going to make sure I know completely before I make my next move.

Cold Season

Yes, I have a full blown head cold! YAY. It is so fun, I can not even tell you how much I love being on the train when I forgot tissue and trying to not make that nasty sound when you are trying to sniffle. Becuase I know I hate when people near me do that. It was a very long train ride.

I hate being sick when I am only a month into my new job and it is very stressful. I have so much to do and just want to be in bed. At least I have had down night and just gone home to my couch. I have alot on my mind this week to, just life and stuff, and it has been maknig this week not go any smoother for me. I know it will all be much better when I finally feel better. I am just hoping I will be better for the weekend and get to relax a bit.

I am doing my best not to infect others with my cold. Once the kids start school, the roads get crowded and the colds start spreading. I will ride this one out and hopefully this will be my cold of the season.

Daily commute

Sometimes when she is on the train there is a song on her ipod that just makes her smile while at the same time the book she is reading takes her to a fairytale world, In that moment she lets out a sigh and realizes that it is in these moments that she feels the peace and the joy that sometimes alludes her during her crazy day of answering emails, and scheduling meetings. It allows her to take in the serenity, even when the tall man behind her keeps banging into her and his armpit smell from holding the pole is not at all like the smell of roses. The music allows her to forget where she is and even where she is going. It is the soundtrack in that moment. The solace she needs to finally feel herself again.