Letting it Happen

Letting things just happen is not always how I do things. I always tend to ask everyone in my life. What do you think about this? Is it to soon for this? I think I am learning to listen to my own head and heart more and not go by what others think I should or should not be doing. I adore my family and friends and of course what they say matters, however I spend a lot of time trying to do what others think I should and then end up more turned around sometimes then I was to start with. I think I am going to sit back, and let things flow a little more then I am used to. See what happens!

"The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want."
~ Ben Stein

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in getting up every time we do."
~ Confucius

Baseball commercials

This is a bit of a random blog, But seriously, why during the baseball playoffs do they feel the need to have every sexual enhancement drug commercial available play, and not just once, but a few times throughout the course of the game. First Viagra then Cialis, I mean.. COME ON. My favorite thing is "If your erection lasts for more then 4 hours you should contact your doctor". Really? Perhaps you should just let your wife/significant other enjoy that! Ha! I mean, isnt the point of those drugs to get an erection, why would you complain then if you had it for 4 hours. I mean, you should be enjoying every moment of it.

The Fall, Music and Silly smiles.. Oh my

The fall is here, it seemed like one day the trees were a full green, and this weekend I noticed that BAM it was full of vibrant color. Even though the idea of winter coming after fall always makes me a bit sad, there is something about the colors changing that bring me warmth. I love the cozy feeling of a sweater on a brisk day. Being able to run around without getting sweaty. This weekend was fully of wonderful colors and unseasonably warm air. It felt so great to be outside and enjoying the day.

I found myself gearing up for this coming weekend and my gig with the band. I love how just when I am getting the urge to sing and let out some energy a gig is right around the corner. We have our new drummer with us this Saturday and we are all looking forward to jamming out. I love the new venue we play at and look forward to some good times. Darren is an amazing drummer and we are really lucky to have him. Music and singing makes me so ridiculously happy. For some reason a good beat, or inspiring lyrics can change a whole day for me. Some words lately that have got to me are:

*Lyrics to Place in this world: Taylor Swift*

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
cause I'm still trying to figure it out
don't know what's down this road, but I'm walking
trying to see through the rain coming down
even though I'm not the only one
who feels the way I do.

*lyrics from Come on get Higher: Matt Nathanson*

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

Music is to me a drug. It lifts me up when I am down. Helps me to cry when I need to just let it out. It is a magical escape from my thoughts when they overwhelming.

Overall I had a wonderful weekend which ended on a really high note. I was pleasantly awakened Sunday evening, and have had a silly grin ever since.

Silence

Silence creeps into the room
I can feel its breath on my neck
It allows me the time to be still

It covers me with peace
touches my soul in locked away places
It allows me the time to be still

My fears subside in its calming arms
my heart beat awakens
It allows me the time to be still

~ TF

Monday in October

I woke today with a thought

okay, so it was a bunch of tiny thoughts, all mushed and jumbled together

Lots of these thoughts have been following me around lately like I am in a conga line at a wedding

except there are no fun props

and Hot Hot Hot is not being played by an overprice DJ

Welcome to my Monday and join my procession

Good thing that Tuesday is never to far away

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And since you know you cannot see yourself,
so well as by reflection, I, your glass,
will modestly discover to yourself,
that of yourself which you yet know not of.
~ William Shakespeare

I know you

Your eyes are no stranger to me
You lips ignite my desires
Your arms bring me comfort

I know you, my sweet
I know your scent, your breath
I know your spirit

In this short time, moment
I feel more passion in my bones
then a decade with another.

If today was the last day
I would feel I lived
I would feel more alive them my yesterdays

Live this moment with me

~ TF