Some pics: Bar Harbor/Heathers wedding

Peaceful and relaxed

I went on vacation last Thursday to Bar Harbor Maine. It was to be a part of my friend Heather and Matts wedding. From the moment we saw our cabin in the woods, my mother and I were instantly relaxed. The walk we took down to the beach was magical, and seeing the view from the rocks of the water brought such a sense of peace. I needed to get away, I was letting the stress of life start to get to me a bit. Being out in nature, and celebrating my two friends decision to spend forever together made me realize all the little things in life that matter. It was truly a beautiful weekend and I come back with a renewed spirit. I am ready for the challenges and know that in life we really do not need to sweat the small stuff.

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Written thoughts from this weekend:

There is something so magical about the way the ocean hits the rocks. It covers them like a new mother would swaddle their child. It washs them and leaves a glistening film of water. The way the sunset dances off the beads of water is enchanting. I am amazed at this beautiful earth, the magic that God created. I believe this is what makes the hard days not seem so bad, makes the sadness we have felt in life find solace. For me the ocean has always been that escape. It wraps me in its wonder. Not many things in life have left me speechless, but these moments have a tendency of doing that to me.

Good Karma

My friend and I were just discussing good karma and how we believe if you do good things in your life it does eventually come back to you. I know for me it did this weekend, with my car having issues and it still being under my warranty. Then to be given a loaner that only had 300 miles on it. I think it was because I am always nice to customer service people and understand what it is like to be in that type of job. I think that if more people were nicer to others they would see that in general people will respond better to you when you are treating them well.

This weekend was so nice. I got out to see my friends cover band "Red Square" play the battle of the cover bands at Olivers Nightclub at the Cask & Flagon. My band could unfortunately not be there as my other singer is on a cruise! So I was glad I could get these guys in there. They are great people and came in second, so that made me really happy. Saturday was spent with my sister after dropping my car off for service. It was really nice to spend a day with her alone. We have not had a chance to do that since Isaac was born 2 years ago. I adore that boy, but Ruth and I had a wonderful time. We had some breakfast then went shopping for a dress she needs for a wedding in June. I am amazed at how well we get along now compared to growing up. I think I just realize more how much I adore my family. My sister is great, we are different, but we can celebrate those differences more now. I had plans that evening with FB, and again had another great time. He is just really easy to be around. I truly enjoy getting to know him. Sunday was spent rehearsing some new songs for the next gig and then the supermarket and pure vegging which was definitely needed.

I am no gearing up to head to Bar Harbor Maine on Thursday with my mother for my best friends wedding that I am in. I am beyond excited. It will be really nice to get away and my Mom is really looking forward to the vacation. We both need it. We have a cabin at the base of the park and are looking forward to morning coffee hikes right from the back yard. I am sure it will be an exhausting weekend, but overall lots of smiles and celebrating Heather and Matt's love. What could be better then being a part of someones future?

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"The story of a love is not important - what is important is that one is capable of love. It is perhaps the only glimpse we are permitted of eternity." Helen Hayes

Today is what matters

So, tomorrow is there, waiting in the wings for me, but I think I will just enjoy today, this moment, sitting at my desk at work. Instead of working I am blogging right now. Blogging about nothing in particular and yet everything all at once. My mind sometimes feels like it is in overdrive, that I constantly have some thought or process going on. Sometimes I just like to stop. This time of year is so good for that. Take my rollerblades down to castle island, or the canal on the cape and just go, feel the wind on my face, enjoy watching the people pass around me, and hearing children laugh. Taking a moment to sit on the wall at the beach and listen to the ocean as the waves come in. It makes me remember the reason I live in New England and can survive through our aweful winters here. I remember it all on one sunny day, when all I can do is smile and think of how beautiful it is. Seeing the first flowers bloom, the trees start to bud. It truly is amazing how the seasons come upon us. I am glad that today is Friday, for many reasons. It is 5 days closer to my long weekend in Bar Harbor for my best friends wedding. It is hours closer to breakfast with my sister and some shopping. It represents time to relax. However right now, as I write this, I am truly as I say most days thankful to be alive, and fully present in my life. To recognize that the stress in everyday proves to be what truly strengthens me and allows me the clarity to see the things in my life that are truly beautiful. We are all given a gift in life, to be able to take the bad and to celebrate in the good. I hope I never stop learning the lessons that make me who I am, and I pray that I will only enjoy this roller coaster for what it is. This journey that I have ahead of me will be one that I am sure will bring me sorrow, and so many joyful moments.

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Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired.
~ Mother Teresa

Be

Be The change you want to see in the world

Smile on the world and it will smile back on you

Two thoughts that are floating around my mind today. Be the change.. what does that mean? I assume like all things that it means something different to everyone. To me, it means be the person that I want others to be, behave the way I would want others to behave to me. It reminds me to not be a person that says one things and then does the complete opposite. It is just a good phrase to keep in my mind on a daily basis. Smile on the world kind of fits into that category as well. I believe what we put out into this world we will get back. Not sure if it is karma I believe in or just that simple fact that if we are truly good people to our earth and those who are in it, then how can we not on some level get that goodness back. I would like to believe that although we go through hard times in life that all of it is part of a much bigger picture and that it all leads to the happiness that we deserve. Sometimes I think we are supposed to have moments of sadness and disappointment. Otherwise we truly would not appreciate all that we have.

I think that the world is a constant learning expierence. You never know what you will get from day to day, and most of it leaves us with more tools for our journey. It is indeed a beautiful journey.

The truth

Been a while since I posted something written, this interestingly enough was written on the train this AM. Glad I am now carrying around a notebook.

The Truth:

Tell me, let me know
The thoughts inside your mind
The words they always vary
But the message remains the same

Teach me, help me understand
That inner space you keep locked
I hear you calling out to me
But the wall wont let me in

Believe in me, in my heart
It has been there before
My walls not as high
Your secrets are safe with me

Tell me the truth
I am here to catch you

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