So, it is here, it seems like it was just the summer and yet this week is Thanksgiving. I love it though. The holidays are so fun, the music, the lights. I think the only thing that is really stressing me out this year is lack of money. Money is so tight and as much as I want to spoil people I know I just can't, I don't have the money for it. So it will be thoughtful and small. I am sure the people in my life would be happy with whatever I gave them. I just like to make sure it is something they will appreciate.
I am looking forward to finally having a tree this year. It has been 3 years since I have had one and I am definitely looking forward to it.
Hopefully this New Year will just continue to bring the blessings on.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
Gloomy Friday
This weather is ucky, but that's okay its Friday.
Fridays make me smile, knowing that I can break free from the grind to enjoy a weekend of sometimes nothing to most times a crowded schedule. However who can complain when the schedule involves people you love so dearly.
Things in my life are wonderful right now. I have an emotional stability that I have wanted for a long time. Back in March when I finally ended my last relationship, I got closure that I so desperately needed. It put my life into motion, a positive light. I felt free of any negativity. I had my struggles mind you, but felt better then I had in a long time. I allowed myself to have sucky and sad days, to cry, to feel my real feelings and always be true to my moods and emotions. Yes, along the way I lost a very important relationship in my life. Do I really know why at this point? No, that is the short answer. Did I do anything wrong? No. however sometimes perception is everything. I think the person I lost viewed the changes in my life not the same way I did, and that is sad. I felt that I was not enough of a friend in her eyes and that is hard. How do you fix that? I think time, space, and that is what I have chosen.
In the end I think I am a wonderful friend to all that I care for and it was truly sad that this had to happen. However I feel walking away was the best thing at this point in my life, and from reactions I have seen since this happened, I could not believe that more. I have been surprised at some of the actions I have seen. I just know in my heart that it all works out the way it is supposed to.
Finding peace about an issue is hard when you don't truly know what the issue was. However learning to accept yourself where you are at is a huge step. To be truly happy is an amazing thing.
I have wonderful friends, an amazing person that I am loving getting to know more and more everyday, and family that is just amazing.
Life is good.. no.. life is GREAT.
Fridays make me smile, knowing that I can break free from the grind to enjoy a weekend of sometimes nothing to most times a crowded schedule. However who can complain when the schedule involves people you love so dearly.
Things in my life are wonderful right now. I have an emotional stability that I have wanted for a long time. Back in March when I finally ended my last relationship, I got closure that I so desperately needed. It put my life into motion, a positive light. I felt free of any negativity. I had my struggles mind you, but felt better then I had in a long time. I allowed myself to have sucky and sad days, to cry, to feel my real feelings and always be true to my moods and emotions. Yes, along the way I lost a very important relationship in my life. Do I really know why at this point? No, that is the short answer. Did I do anything wrong? No. however sometimes perception is everything. I think the person I lost viewed the changes in my life not the same way I did, and that is sad. I felt that I was not enough of a friend in her eyes and that is hard. How do you fix that? I think time, space, and that is what I have chosen.
In the end I think I am a wonderful friend to all that I care for and it was truly sad that this had to happen. However I feel walking away was the best thing at this point in my life, and from reactions I have seen since this happened, I could not believe that more. I have been surprised at some of the actions I have seen. I just know in my heart that it all works out the way it is supposed to.
Finding peace about an issue is hard when you don't truly know what the issue was. However learning to accept yourself where you are at is a huge step. To be truly happy is an amazing thing.
I have wonderful friends, an amazing person that I am loving getting to know more and more everyday, and family that is just amazing.
Life is good.. no.. life is GREAT.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
"Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now"
~ lyrics to falling slowly
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11/6/08
Point me home
where my heart feel safe and warm
direct me to that which I know
This world scare me
lead me to the place that feels old
like my favorite sweatshirt
Take my hand and guide me
to a secret hideaway in your arms
your scent brings me solitude
~ TF
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now"
~ lyrics to falling slowly
************************************************
11/6/08
Point me home
where my heart feel safe and warm
direct me to that which I know
This world scare me
lead me to the place that feels old
like my favorite sweatshirt
Take my hand and guide me
to a secret hideaway in your arms
your scent brings me solitude
~ TF
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Time for Change
I put my stereo on as I made my way to the gym to hear the end of Barack Obamas acceptance speech. My heart was indeed full.
Today marks the start of a new era. As an american I have a spring in my step today. If you supported McCain now is the time to let that go and realize that Obama sympbolizes something greater then we can imagine. This country elected an african american president. This is a country that was knee deep in slavery for far to long and last night, we came together as a nation to elect Barack Obama. I feel that there is a shift in this country for the first time in a long time. People are finally saying, enough! We need to take control of this country again, bring it back to the bare bones and rebuild the futures of our children.
Will Barack have what it takes? Is this the change we need? I know these are all questions we are all asking. The real answer is we will not know for a while. I just have to have faith that it will all be for the best. I am sure he will make decisions I do not agree with, but that is life. That happens in all relationships in my life.
We have been drowned in racism for far to long. Last night has shown that this country has become more blended then ever. I could not be prouder to be an american the this morning.
I know it will not all be roses, and we should not let the historical meaning of last night cloud our vision of a better future. I only pray that Barack Obama will prove himself and do what he can to better our world.
Today marks the start of a new era. As an american I have a spring in my step today. If you supported McCain now is the time to let that go and realize that Obama sympbolizes something greater then we can imagine. This country elected an african american president. This is a country that was knee deep in slavery for far to long and last night, we came together as a nation to elect Barack Obama. I feel that there is a shift in this country for the first time in a long time. People are finally saying, enough! We need to take control of this country again, bring it back to the bare bones and rebuild the futures of our children.
Will Barack have what it takes? Is this the change we need? I know these are all questions we are all asking. The real answer is we will not know for a while. I just have to have faith that it will all be for the best. I am sure he will make decisions I do not agree with, but that is life. That happens in all relationships in my life.
We have been drowned in racism for far to long. Last night has shown that this country has become more blended then ever. I could not be prouder to be an american the this morning.
I know it will not all be roses, and we should not let the historical meaning of last night cloud our vision of a better future. I only pray that Barack Obama will prove himself and do what he can to better our world.
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