Be Happy

"Happiness comes of the capacity to feel deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely, to risk life, to be needed."

As she looked at the rain falling outside, she wished for the sun. The way it would sneak in and flood her bedroom with natural light in the morning. It did not matter if her blinds were closed, it always found a way to gently touch the room. The way that no matter how she felt in her heart, when she walked into that light it would make her feel alive. Something about the way it touched her face allowed her to breathe deeper, to embrace the day and whatever was going to come her way. The simplicity of a sunny day, there would never be anything that amazed her more. However on the rainy days she is also reminded of how we sometimes need the rain to make things new. That the rain was there to clean things off, so that when the sun did shine again we would realize the beauty once again. Sometimes all we need is a quick thunderstorm to usher in and other times it takes a three day rainstorm. However when it passes we feel renewed and ready to conquer all that comes are way. She smiled and walked out into the rain and splashed in the puddles knowing that the sun always shines again.

Be yourself

Oh how I love Dr. Suess. Little did I know when loving his books as a child I would realize just how much wisdom he had!

Raindrops keep fallin...

"Don't threaten me with love, baby. Let's just go walking in the rain."
~ Billie Holiday

It's Monday again

Its funny how Monday mornings sneak up on us. Although I am actually glad to be working as the weather is really cruddy lately. I have to say that I had a wonderful weekend. I just feel so great about life and about the decisions I have made over the last month. I feel stronger then ever, but I have also refocused on the positive, and really am leaving the past behind me. I feel alive, free, and energized for the days ahead. I have a bright outlook on life, and I am so thankful for the friends and family in my life that always remind me of what is important. Mostly I am grateful for the love they provide me. Even though it is gloomy out I find myself smiling for no reason and truly overwhelmed with happiness.

Guess what?

It's FRIDAY! Whoop!

Everything

I stole this from another blog I read and under it was simply posted "Because it is". This resonated with me today, so I wanted to post it on my blog. Everything will be okay. Life is a neverending journey! Enjoy the ride.

Slowing down

PHEW! It has been a crazy few weeks full of good times and some not so fun times in my life. However it all has a positive spin so we will focus on that. My baby brother got married on May 1st! It was a weekend full of new traditions and old. My brother married a wonderful woman who's family is from India, so we got to be a little immersed in that culture throughout the weekend. I even got to wear a sari, and I have to say I have never felt more beautiful. It was so amazing to see how tender my brothers heart is and to see how deeply in love he and his beautiful bride are. I can only wish to have a love like that someday. It was so nice to celebrate the journey they have taken together with all of my loved ones. I will remember that weekend always!
I also moved into my new apartment this past Saturday and I am slowly making it my own. I just wish the genie that unpacks boxes would hurry up and get there! I also recorded on my phone a blog that I will post once I have Internet set up there. I got my iPhone recorder and turned it on and while sitting on the floor of my new living room the day before I moved, just me and a beer, I recorded how I was feeling in that moment. I think I need to do that more. I find I can express myself better when I can just talk freely.
This journey over the last 3 weeks has been interesting, painful, eye opening and liberating all at once. I am where I am for a reason, I wish I did not have to go through this, but it has made me stronger and I feel confident about my path and the future. I need to take responsibility for the choices I made, learn from them and be a better person because of them.

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If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude."
~ Maya Angelou

Roller Coaster

I have been wanting to blog since my last entry and just have felt at a loss. It is not that I don't know what to say it is more my feelings are constantly changing lately. I guess I can start with I am looking forward to my move on Saturday. Bittersweet as it is, it is moving on and starting over and that is never a bad thing. I posted a quote on my facebook page yesterday: “I can be changed by what happens to me. but I refuse to be reduced by it.” It is a great quote by one of my favorite writers/poets Maya Angelou. It truly speaks volumnes to how I feel right now. You are changed by what happens to you in life, the good and the bad. However it is what we do with that change that matters. How am I feeling today? Well I guess there is not one emotion I am feeling, they are all entertwined. So I won't list them but I will merely say that I am holding onto the positive ones and trying to let the negative feelings fall away. I cannot look back and think about the 'what ifs', I simply need to move forward to the 'what will be's'. Hang on to the old cliche that everything happens for a reason and take each day as it comes. I want to embrace where I am going, nothing in life is a failure, it is a lesson learned.