Endless night

The summer sun was slipping slowly as the cool breeze ushered in to end the day.
The ocean always did sound so peaceful at night, sometimes it was hard to know if it was the sounds of the water crashing on the rocks or the beating of my heart that I could hear. I always found this to be the time of day when my thoughts were clearest. I wish I could bottle this moment and take it out on a day when the world is full of needless noise. The feeling of the sand under my feet, laughing to myself as it tickles my toes, the old sweatshirt that no matter how old it gets is always a comfort as the evening cools. It is a night like this that I wish time would stop and allow me to soak it in as long as my little heart desires.

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If a June night could talk, it would probably boast it invented romance. ~Bern Williams

My thoughts

Today my thoughts lean towards earlier years and decisions I made. I realize 34 is still really young, but I am feeling my age today. I am seeing friends marry, and friends that have been married have children. It all brings to light how fast life is moving now. I have amazing people in my life, great friends, amazing family. Will I be a mother someday? Perhaps. Will I allow if I am not to define me? Never! I wont let status of what I have or have not define my future. I think my life is exactly as planned, and I look forward to what it brings along. I do sometimes allow myself to get sad and dwell, however that is truly only human and to not let that happen would make me a robot. I think I am close to finding peace in the fact that I can not plan out truly what will happen and that there is a thing called destiny that does guide us all. I will never stop wishing for things I do not have, but I guess that is what will make me appreciate it in the long run. Life is a gift and I need to enjoy every moment.

Summertime rolls in....

The summer is upon us, and this time of year always puts a new spring in my step. For some reason waking up to the sun and hearing the birds singing always makes you want to wake and tackle the day. It makes us remember the things we loved about summer as a kid. Despite the obvious, it meant 2 months off to run around town. Also it brought days at the beach, the sound of the ice cream truck, or the taste of soft serve at your favorite spot. It also meant for some of us the crush you had on the boy down the street, and the endless game of "does he like me too". The best thing for me about the summer was being able to spend time with my Nana and Grandad who lived downstairs from us. My nana had the most amazing imagination, and always had this twinkle in her eye. I believe she was an angel, there was a magic I felt when I was with her. She always knew how to put me at ease, she made me feel talented and beautiful. Nana always told me I was special and a creature made perfectly by God. When she passed it only took away the physical interaction. I truly feel everyday since then (almost 16 years) that she is with me. There are times I look to her for guidance still and I grasp a memory or I look at a picture of us and it brings me back to those days. I will still always remember playing the piano in the hallway to hear the door open and see her watching me. The love in her eyes and the joy in her smile as I played on. Summer is magical, and I look forward to having one of the best yet!

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I only think of you.....Everytime my heart beats.

Life is about forgiveness and letting go

I have a wonderful gift, something that I am overly grateful for. I have the gift of forgiveness. I have learned that life is short and that we all make mistakes. I want more then ever when I hurt someone or do something I know was wrong for a person to forgive me. I think we all have this gift, however sometimes we are stubborn, and we don't want to forgive. Sometimes the hurt comes from a deep place inside and we don't want to let it go. I also believe that sometimes we miss out when we don't forgive, we miss a great opportunity to grow as a person. I think it also allows us to truly get to know someone when we forgive, because it lets us into their vulnerable side. The tender side of a person that we should grasp onto. I find it is the moments when our true weakness comes out that we really allow someone into our world a little. I believe in not just second chances, but sometimes third as well. I have learned that in life we have to stop keeping score. Otherwise how can we truly move ahead. Forgive people even when they hurt you, realize they are human and we all need to be more open to allowing others to have their faults.

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“To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness.”

Baby bumps and birthday spanks

I get to have a lovely walk with my friend Dawn this eveing. You know there is nothing better then seeing a friend go through her first pregnancy. The glow, the unchartered territory they are making there way to. My friend Dawn is amazing. She is the kind of person that lights up a room and is always smiling. She has a way about her that just fills me with joy! Some people ooze positivity and she is truly one of them. She is married to an equally wonderful man Graeme. He is someone that she literally met randomly one summer and it became a VERY long distance relationship. It is amazing how a love can be so destined. I am blessed to know such a free spirit. A day can be made better just by spending a moment in her presence. She always knows what to say to make me smile when I am having a bad day and I hardly ever hear her utter a negative word. The child she is carrying is blessed beyond belief to have such wonderful parents.

I must send a VERY happy birthday to my lovely cousin Larissa! She will be getting a birthday smack from me this evening!

Have a fabulous weekend my friends and remember try saying hello to a stranger, it just might make their day!