Pensive evening..

Lots on my mind tonight. life.. love.. decisions..

What is going on in my brain this evening. *laugh* I am not sad, just pensive. I think I am mulling over this past month and all the changes. Am I excited about moving forward and what awaits me? I guess I am, more then I thought I would be. The not knowing is actually very peaceful to me. This whole letting life happen thing feels FANTASTIC. Even though I want to know the end of the story, this whole enjoying the journey thing is pretty great!

life is a big and wonderful adventure full of amazing events and people. I am loving every minute of it. The ups and the downs.

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“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”

Snow

Remember when snow was this magical thing to us. It gave us a day off school and we used to laugh with excitement getting ready to go outside and play in it.

We lived across from a school growing up and it had what at the time to us was a huge parking lot. We used to watch as they plowed and as soon as they were done, we would run over there and stalk out our "fort". Each of us would find a plowed spot and start making it our snowball fort. We would dig a spot to duck down in and proceed to make our snowballs. We would hide around the school seeing who could nail the other kid sooner with a nice big chunk of this magnificent white stuff.

Snow days were a wonderful escape. That was all you could do, was go outside until you could not take the cold anymore. Laugh with friends, and enjoy not having a care in the world.

I think we should all take an adult snow day sometime, were we build forts, go sledding, and watch cartoons to our hearts content. Instead this time, we will add some baileys to our hot cocoa. :)

25 Random things about me

25 Things

1. I used to be able to write with both of my feet

2. When I am walking I try not to step on cracks.

3. I am sadly a hopeless romantic, and it will never change

4. I trust perhaps to much and it tends to burn me more then I like

5. I still think that I will be a real rockstar someday

6. Seeing my Nephew literally fills me with joy I could never have imagined

7. I look at my sister in a whole new light since she had Isaac

8. I will lose the weight I want this year, becuase I want to do it for me and no one else.

9. I truly hate my nose, but would never get a nose job

10. I fear being alone

11. I wonder if I will ever have a family

12. I seriously have an obsession with John Cusack

13. I have an unhealthy obsession with reality shows.

14. I love to take long hot baths

15. I would love to live in Italy for a year, but fear the change

16. I love to feel the grass under my feet in the summer

17. I love sitting at the edge of the water at the ocean and having it run over my toes.

18. I want a Chocolate Lab someday

19. I always wished I was born in Ireland and not here

20. I have an addiction with cheese

21. I love to be on top of a mountain and look out below me.

22. I love my mother above anyone

23. I wonder if my judgement will always be bad

24. My Nana has been gone for over 13 years and I miss her more everyday

25. I love peanut butter and banana sandwichs

Smile.. anyway

Life is rough sometimes, it is a roller coaster and it can really knock us on our butt sometimes. I have found that I can still smile through it all and that is a great lesson. Sure, I may bawl my eyes out first, and feel like it is all coming down on me, but then I dust myself off, pick myself up and find the solution. Life is way to short for us to spend time letting people and things get us down. I think that no matter how good of a person you are things will happen, it is how you deal with it that makes you the person you are.

Mind over matter

I am so amazed at the power of the mind sometimes. I have been unable to really speak the past few days and lets just say this week has not been the best for me. The one thing I love and that makes me feel so in touch with who I am is singing. So I was really nervous that I would not be able to sing last night, and it made me sad. Well the time comes, I get on stage, and all of a sudden there is my voice. Sure, it did not sound like it always does, but I could not believe what was coming out of me. I am so thankful for it. I needed to have a great night, to sing, and make people smile. I feel that I not only accomplished that for others, but also for myself.

My brother and his beautiful girlfriend Sreela came and it was so nice to see them. I love when I can share my talent with my family.

Here are some pictures from the night.