Birthdays and thoughts and a quote, oh my

Who am I you ask?

I am 32 (ugh) as of Saturday the 21st of June, and I feel fabulous. The night was full of eggs flying in the air, and shrimp tails being thrown at me (we went to a Japanese Steakhouse) and then amazing vocal styling happened in the ever so wonderful and cheezy lounge downstairs, that would not have been complete without the typical man in his 50's singing Frank Sinatra and dancing with me. Good times were had by all. Age is just what they say, merely a number, most days I feel 5 and still love to go to the park and swing like I am going to fly into the clouds.

I work at a consulting firm in Boston with wonderful people, I also sing in a Rock cover band off the south shore called "Too Loud" and I absolutely love it

Some things I love and random thoughts:
Music and singing: The power of music still amazes me and makes me feel alive. When I am performing with my band it makes any other worry on my mind just melt away

My nephews laughter: brings such a peace to my soul

My family: I cherish them more now that I know the sacrifices my mother made and how far all of us have come in life.

My cats Ella and Elvis: they have a way of making my day, whether it is a snuggle on the couch or a lick on the nose, they make my cares float away

The feeling of cool grass on my feet in the spring/summertime

The smell of the air after a midday thunderstorm

The end of a soft serve cone, when the ice cream is in the crevices on the bottom. MMMmm

The ocean and its constant ability to bring me right back to my core and allow me to feel at ease about this journey we are on.

The memory of my Nana and how soft the skin on her cheek felt when she hugged me hello, and the way she would laugh at my ramblings and always encourage me to sing and make music.

On the train, when I have my ipod on shuffle and a song I have not heard in weeks pops on and it just happens to relate to something I am thinking of or dealing with at that moment.

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I have found that with my old age and craziness also comes even more of an appreciation for the simple things, the things that we take for granted when our mind is spinning out of control. These simple things vary from time to time, however the nakedness of what truly makes us happy and feeds us on a daily basis are the things that don't cost money, and are easily accessible at all times.

I will leave you now with this:

“Dance as though no one is watching you. Love as though you have never been hurt before. Sing as though no one can hear you. Live as though heaven is on earth.”

Okay.. So, my birthday happened and I am OK with it! :)

32.. yes I am 32, today is my second full day of being 32. I would have to say that I still sometimes feel 18, and act 5. Age is as they say, is just a number, however it is that one time of year you reflect on your life. I actually feel that for the first time I am not stressed about my future. I am content, happy, and actually like just living each day and seeing where it takes me. I feel relaxed about it all. I am complete, of course I would love to share this with someone, but that all comes in time and when it does come I know that I will be ready for it for the first time in my life. I think I never truly understood that you had to be whole as a person before you could really give yourself to someone else. That was something I always heard however I thought, well that is silly, we never really feel complete, and I guess to some extent that is true. But you can feel whole even when you have more you want to accomplish or things that you want to work on. Anyway, the point to all this rambling today is that I really feel good about today, and this moment I am in. It is refreshing, and a really peaceful place to be.

This year ahead will only allow me to understand myself even better with each victory and defeat, and with the happiness it will bring and the sadness. I know this is the time to enjoy, the journey is what is it l about after all.

The longer I live the more beautiful life becomes.
Frank Lloyd Wright (1869 - 1959)

This picture just makes me smile!

Seriously, how cute is the little man with his daddy. Isaac is getting so big. My sister took this on a walk with her hubby Brian. He is just getting so big.

Lyrics that stood out to me today

Being the singer I am and always relating to lyrics there are times on the train to and from work that certain lyrics hit me. Today it was this song by Carrie Underwood. Reminds me that sometimes we are always looking for something that might already be there. We chase what we think we want, only to look back and see what we had. Life is funny that way, although it is all in the bumps in this journey, and sometimes looking back makes us realize just how lucky we are. I know it seems to relate more to relationships, but I was looking at it as a bigger picture. So perhaps today I will assess my life and see all the blessings I do have and realize it is closer then I think it is.


You Won't find this

Did you check the tires
Put gas in the car
Don't think you need to much,
'cause you ain't gonna get that far
Did you pack the good times
Don't forget a map
Just in case the route you take
isn't there to take you back

You can hold any girl that you like
Fall in love when it's easy at night
But, you'll wake up wondering
why she ain't ever something better
When you're lost and run out of road
Find what I already know
In the end closer's all there is
But you won't find this
No, you won't find this

There's once in a lifetime
And there's once in a while
And the difference between the two
is about a million miles
Oh, you might get lucky
while the moon is looking up
But in the truth of the morning,
the stars will be long gone

You can hold any girl that you like
Fall in love when it's easy at night
But, you'll wake up wondering why
she ain't ever something better
When you're lost and run out of road
Find what I already know
In the end closer's all there is
But you won't find this

Happy Monday!

Hey all!

Just wanted to say Happy Monday!

Leave you with this Walt Whitman passage:

Whoever you are, I fear you are walking the walks of dreams,I fear these supposed realities are to melt from under your feet and hands,Even now your features, joys, speech, house, trade, manners, troubles, follies, costume, crimes, dissipate away from you,Your true soul and body appear before me,They stand forth out of affairs, out of commerce, shops, work, farms, clothes, the house, buying, selling, eating, drinking, suffering, dying.Whoever you are, now I place my hand upon you, that you be my poem,I whisper with my lips close to your ear,I have loved many women and men, but I love none better than you.