And.. He walks!

*Sigh* so it is official, my little munchkin of a nephew Isaac is now walking. Apparently all over the house. I hate how fast they grow up, but it is such a wonderful mystery of life how these things happen. He is a pretty amazing kid, of course I am partial being his aunt and all.

So, I think it is time my sister start working on number 2. HA!

New York, Wedding Gowns, and Random thoughts, Oh My!

Hello all! (or at least the 3 people that read my blogs)

Sorry I have been not the best blogger in the world, however I normally only blog when I feel I have something today. Does that mean I have something to say today? Um.. sorry, not really. I do have a bunch of possibly mind numbing ramblings that I wish to share. (side note* if you want to just skip this blog I will not be offended)

So, Friday AM I will after a lovely breakfast at the diner next store, be taking off to New York with one of my best girlies. She recently got engaged, and picked me as her maid of honor (and honored I am). So we are heading there for her to meet with her advisor and then for some fun happenings around NY. I am sure I will find some trouble somewhere to cause. Then on Sunday we will be going to the famous Kleinfelds in Manhattan. http://kleinfeldbridal.com/.

This should prove to be fun. However I have started to think about wedding as ALOT of work. I know as a Maid of honor I have alot on my plate as well. However I would do anything for Heather, so that is not an issue.

I am sure we shall have some silly times together this weekend, and I will bring my camera and share some fun photos upon my return.

So for some random thoughts on my mind today. I have been pondering that last few days the connections we have with people. I find that some of us are connected on a level that is out of control. I feel that way with some of my friends, and then with people that I meet. Relationships are amazing to me. The way we can just know what someone is thinking, or call someone right when they needed us too. I think that there are so many amazing instances in my own personal life where this has happened. I think we have what I like to call kindred spirits in our lives, instead of soul mates, soul friends. I truly feel on many levels that there are people in my life that if they were not here anymore the loss would be so painful. I think I am so blessed to have some solid people around. Friends/family that I know will be there through it all, even when they might not want to be. We are all weaved together in some magical pattern, and it is one that embraces me like a warm blanket and allows me that safety. When I feel alone, is when I am faced with the realization that I am not alone, that as much as I may want to give in to that emotion, that the truth is, my answer is always just a phone call away.

To the Sweetest little man I know

This face changed my world. That day in February when I finally got to look into the eyes of this amazing little man I then learned what pure love is like. His face lights up my world. He smile makes my heart flutter. I never knew the kind of love I could feel for a child til the day my nephew was born. He is amazing, and bring me back to earth when I am feeling sorry for myself. he reminds me that all things in life starts so simply. To watch a child enjoy a piece of cake for instance

Do you remember how good your first piece of cake tasted. I bet Isaac JUST reminded you of that. *laugh* He gives me more or a reason to be a better person. The last time I saw him he actually reached out for me to hold him. Can I just tell you that was the best moment ever. To know that he loves his auntie Tara. I think all my worries melt away when he is in my arms.

I am amazed at the feelings I have for him. It is truly life changing. I can only imagine the day when I am blessed to have my own child. If I feel this for Isaac, I am sure it will me magnified when it is my own child.

So little guy! I love you with all I have in me. Look forward to watching you grow into an amazing man!

Ignorance is bliss

Monday mornings always bring the hustle to get out of the apartment, and there always seems to be something I am forgetting, or something holding me up. So I find I always am at least 5-10 minutes behind schedule of where I want to be. So I get to the train, and I am one of the lucky ones where it is an early enough stop and I always get a seat. So I sit down with my ipod, get all cozy and relax for my ride in. This is when I will take the time to tell you that I am 3 seats in from the door and on my left and right are two gentlemen (I use the term VERY loosely here). So we get two stops into our journey, and reach North Quincy Station. I look and see a women get on the train who has a baby in one of those carriers that you wear. I wait a moment to see if either of the men on the sides of me.. or the women that is RIGHT near the door even move or make a gesture to give up there seat. Do you think they did? NO! So.. Tara does, as always. Both men look at me..and still let ME give up my seat. I dont know why this bothers me so much as I see it all the time and have had to do it all the time. I just wish people were not so ignorant. It just really bothers me. I dont mind giving my seat up, but when I see men there and I was raised on traditional values, I get really irritated. I know it is 2008 and I dont expect a man to give me a seat just becuase I am a women, but women that are pregnant, or have a child, that is a different story. Oh well. Lets hope that I can set an example to some people out there. I just wish people paid attention to there surroundings and were not so caught up in there world.

Happy Monday! :)

* Thankful *

It is amazing how a moment can change your whole week. I have been in a funk all week, stress, anxiety. I am sure for a number of reasons. Sad that I am not moving further along in areas I want to be, feeling sorry for myself because I am single.. every little thing that is "wrong" with my life was magnified 100% this week for me. That all stopped at about 8:40AM this morning when I got on the Orange line and turned around and there was a man in a wheelchair that could only move his arms. In that moment I was horrified at how I felt all week, and felt so selfish. I realized instead of all the things that I am missing, why am I not paying attention to all that I actually have and what I have achieved. Be thankful for the gifts I have and the people that I am so blessed to have in my life now. Mostly to realize that some of the things I take for granted this man can't even do. Sometimes it takes one moment when I feel that God says.. "Tara, wake up and look around you, you have been blessed"

Today will be spent with my chin up realizing that in moments of weakness, when I feel sorry for myself I need to look around me and take in others challenges in life and realize we all have them and that sometimes our focus just needs to be adjusted to see beyond them.

"I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances. " - Martha Washington (1732 - 1802)